maybe, maybe not. we'll see as this progresses.
time is all screwed up for me right now. the days feel like weeks, i sleep for what seems like only minutes, and i'm enjoying every bit of it.
if someone were to tell me that i've only had seven days of college classes i wouldn't believe them for a second.
there's too much to do and say, too many names to remember, too many distractions.
i miss things, but there's no time to dwell when you're surrounded by people 24/7, and i like that. i like people. they're good for entertainment, and much more.
learning has been redefined for me. this time i'm in it to grab onto every little thing i can learn, observe, or realize. good grades, you can come if you like, but i'm not chasing you. i want to find out something new and exciting every day. i want to read books written by people whose minds are refined and bold. i want to exchange ideas and learn a new kind of listening. i want to write things down.
i love living with jessica, and i love that kori falls asleep on one of our beds every night before going back to her room. if she does go back that is. the first week we were here we had this conversation 70+ times with various people:
"what's your name?"
"jessica" in unison.
"oh two jessicas! that's easy/confusing/cool/convenient. where are you from?"
"las vegas" in unison.
"oh cool, are you guys roommates or something? did you know each other before?"
"yep."
we're beginning to lose our enthusiasm.
i love the people i already know, but the ones i've met recently are truly lovely. i may not be as social as some would like, but i try, and for a natural hermit such as myself that's saying a lot. i'm excited to keep meeting people and doing new things, and that's where my newfound quest for bravery comes in. after all, it's college, if i'm going to be brave it's now or never.
our dorm room feels like home. it doesn't really bother me that our entire room and bathroom could fit in the kitchen of some of our friends' apartments. it's cozy and happy and comforting and relaxing. and chaotic as well, but since when has my life not had a hint of chaos.
as my exhausted mind wanders at full speed, my words are shortened to lists and severed thoughts, but i feel the need to record them nonetheless.
-i'm glad i am where i am.
-i wish i rode my bike more often.
-our night tours around the grass outside the dorms have produced results varying in degrees of excitement, and that's as much detail as i'm providing.
-i'm thrilled about peach week but haven't yet had the time to hunt down a fresh one from a proper farmer's market.
-i stay up too late, yet somehow wake up excited each morning.
-if i plan on surviving i need to avoid the chocolate chip pumpkin cookies at all costs.
-i need to be more adventurous while the weather permits.
-textbooks are maybe not as bad as i'd thought.
-why is my heel insisting on having protruding bones that pain me on my daily walk up the hill?
-seeing travis barker play on a rotating drum platform raised 30 feet in the air was unreal.
-the dashboard stickers stuck inconspicuously around campus warm my heart. november 11th!
-the food place (which we only refer to as the food place) is nothing more than a challenge in timing and sight seeing.
-it's 9/9/09, and i find that really cool.
-i need to do laundry.
-i miss my family.
i won't be seen in an "i am byu" shirt, no way.
but i am me, and me feels just right right about now.
now i've suddenly had the urge to go on that bike ride i was just mentioning.
enjoy your evening. i hope it's as beautiful as the one here.
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