7.25.2011

i'm old.

i have worn the same pair of jeans for three weeks now.

and i'm old. 21 even. i know there are a wide variety of wild 21-year-old things that would excite others in my position, but i can't even think what they are right now. 

would you like to know what excites me more than anything? 

my life right now. my lowkey utah valley life. 

i wedding plan, i write emails, i make phone calls, i sit on my couch til i have numb butt and then i get in my car and run an errand or two. i leave indecipherable voicemails for my lover, i go on a spur of the moment four mile run and then wash it down with a cinnamon roll. i spend a whole lot of alone time in the apt, i wait anxiously for five o'clock, because that means my man's work is done in the byu sports camps world and i can go pick him up and stare at him foolishly. i whine about the heat simply for the comic effect. it's the irony of my vegas upbringing that really gets to me. 

sometimes i drive through the canyon and zone out and wish i was a bird. a really fast bird. a peregrine falcon, because they are fast and admirable and quite regal i think. it's so frustrating sometimes to think that there are endless miles of beautiful things that i'll never get to see because my arthritic human legs can't get me there. i'd like to be a bird on occasion. i first came to this realization when i was living in uganda last summer. that green just got to me like nothing else could and i wanted nothing more than to fly around and see it all. 

being human is cool too though. i actually quite enjoy it. it means i get to say whatever nonsense i like. it means i can subscribe to netflix. it means i can go on bike rides when my bike-riding sidekick's tire is not destroyed. it means i can eat three snow cones a week. it means i get to have a lovely birthday each year. it means i can hike to the top of the world (if we're counting provo as the world) and sweat and be asthmatic and get sunburned, and look out over the town where i reside and smile because i enjoy it so. 

being human also means realizing how incompetent i am at kitchenly tasks. but i'm working on that one. i realized the other day that i either needed to end up with a man who knows how to cook, or a man without any taste buds. luckily matthew is extraordinary in the kitchen, and appreciates my efforts when i  break out something other than a sandwich. 

which reminds me. IN LESS THAN FOUR WEEKS I AM GOING TO BE A WIFE! incredible. i feel like my whole life up until i met matt was just endless build-up for our life together. i'm blown away by how lucky i got. if anyone still even follows this blog of mine, perhaps you'll remember back in september when i mentioned building up the courage to talk to a boy in front of a hot dog stand. i had to pretend i didn't know his name and i was so nervous. well something must have been in the air that night, because the past eleven months have been the happiest of my life. things have never felt so right.

even those four months i spent out of the country, surviving off of an average of six emails a day. it was complicated to be falling in love with spain while my heart was back at home. i felt almost half-human i was so torn between my two worlds. but it was worth it. i feel so lucky for being able to go. i love this big world we live in. 

in other news: the sound on my phone hasn't worked in five days. you can call me and talk all you want, and i'll even respond and yell hello endlessly, but you won't be able to hear me. looks like a trip to the apple store is needed. like i haven't made the drive to salt lake enough in the last two weeks. 

i mention that only because i think my inability to converse may be a small factor in this sudden brain spew.

i'm off to make a sandwich. 

1.30.2011

proof.

After receiving an email from my grandpa in which I was asked to confirm whether I was alive or dead, I realized that I should probably use this blog for its intended purpose and keep my loved ones aware of my existence. 


I am indeed alive and kicking. The kicking comes into play at night when I crawl into my freezing sheets and try to warm them up via body movement. Our first sun-filled week tricked us. It is cold here. 


I love Spain. I love speaking Spanish. I love the adorable little boys who run around in cardigans and button up shirts and shorts with tights under them to keep their legs warm. Little kids who speak Spanish are one of my favorite things. I love siesta time and take advantage of it somewhat frequently. I love embracing the frizz and never doing my hair because it takes three times as long with these low-voltage hair tools. I love our host mom Blanca, even though communication is often difficult and we are sometimes nervous she won't like us anymore if we're not able to finish all of our food or keep our rooms as clean as she'd like. Trying to live up to her cleaning standards has been good for me, because for once in my life I am getting in the habit of making my bed before I leave the house and hanging my clothes back up after I try them on. Such an odd concept, but surprisingly helpful in making our tiny space not feel so tiny. 
My cute cold little bed. 
Where I am currently seated. I have the solo room and Alyssa and Shayna are right next to me. 

I love living with Shayna and Alyssa. We got so lucky that they let us all live together. I can't tell you how wonderful it is to have a little bit of my home life here with me. Every time I turn around they are dancing in the middle of some large plaza and Spaniards are staring at them as they walk by. I have fun friends. Though I still have yet to see their dancing talent rub off on me in any way. We have also made some really good new friends since we've been here. Our group is great. I am glad. 
Shay and myself on our first day. In front of the original façade of Universidad de Alcalá de Henares. We take classes at Alcaligua, the foreign exchange part of the university.
Hariboooooo. We've since laid off the candy shops for the betterment of our stomachs. 
Me and my cute little rubias. 
Aforementioned street dancing in Plaza Mayor. 
Alyssa danced three full songs with this lady and the mariachi band that was playing in Puerta del Sol. The people loved her. 
New amigas out for a stroll in Parque del Retiro. 
World class posers.

I love traveling. I love hopping on the train after lunch and heading into Madrid to stop by a museum or do some shopping. I love Häagen Dazs Midnight Chocolate Cookie Ice Cream. I love walking to school every morning and trying not to get hit by cars. I love trying to catch the right bus to get around town. I love where we live in Alcalá. Our apartment, though not in the prettiest part of town, is a seven minute walk to school and a five minute walk to the train station. There is a lovely little park a half mile away that I have run to a few times. I love the little old men playing bocce ball on one of the fields when I do my laps. I love our weekend getaways to see the beautiful, historical, and freezing cold parts of Spain. I love living in sensory overload and seeing the architecture and art I've always loved learning about in real life. It's incredible.
Beautiful first day exploring Madrid. Palacio Real in the back there. 
Street men are Alyssa's biggest thrill.
We fantasize about living in this neighborhood. 
Plaza Mayor in Madrid. Always a pleasure.
This is what we look like on a train.
Strolling about Madrid back when it was warm.
Alleyway chocolaterias are the real deal.
Shayna's future husband taking a nap. 
Occasionally we stalk futbolistas. 
And Kip pretends he's going to take flight. 
Puerta de Alcalá in Madrid. The view of the city through the center at this time of day is absolutely gorgeous.

Gorgeous at night as well.
Häagen Dazs heaven. We couldn't actually sit there because you have to pay extra at most places if you get your food to stay, but the cajera was kind enough to take our picture before she kicked us to the street. 
We've been to the Museo del Prado twice already. I'm in love with it. Usually you can get in free after 5, but his time we bought tickets to the Renoir exhibit that ends at the end of the month. I was so thrilled that we didn't miss it. It was so so worth it. 
Me and Abby at the theater where we saw a Flamenco ballet. It was impressive, but I don't think I really appreciated it until the next night when I got dragged to a beginner Flamenco class at our school. Hardest thing of my life. I have zero rhythm.

I am learning to love the food. We've found a few yummy restaurants in Madrid and around town, but most days we eat our meals at home. I love the never ending supply of delicious fruit in our kitchen, and how we eat at least six clementines a day. Blanca is very much a fan of "la comida típica de España" and that is not always what we are used to. Luckily I am an absurdly un-picky eater, so for the most part everything I've tried I've thought was pretty good. However, I could easily round up some of my friends who would argue otherwise. It's just different. Different is ok, it just takes getting used to. Blanca really is an excellent cook, and she's been so good about learning what our favorites are and what we don't particularly love. Plus we always have wonderful lunch time conversations with her in which she relays the latest celebrity gossip or talks about her life or Spain or what's going on in the news. She told us the only English she knows is "Thank you," but one day she told her adorable granddaughter to tell us "bye-bye," so I sometimes wonder what other gems she's holding out on.
 
Place in Alcalá where we got yummy bruschetta-esque snacks. The name of the cafe translates to "The Moustaches of Quijote." As in Don. They love him here.
At the previously shown chocolateria. Churros con chocolate. So delicious. 
We found the only Mexican restaurant in town and were craving it bad. So we got overpriced average burritos and ridiculously overpriced delicious guacamole. Then we realized that was stupid. Now we make our own guacamole when we're desperate for it.
These are our favorite. Blanca doesn't approve because it's not typical Spanish food, but we're madly in love with our 3 euro kebabs. We've been twice and the waitress is practically our new best friend.


Also we go to school sometimes. I am really liking that part a lot actually. It's so much easier to speak up in an International Business class when you're surrounded by ten people you know well instead of a hundred people who scare you a little bit. And after enduring two semesters of BYU's intense foreign language classes, I'm loving how my Spanish class is so laid back. I'm learning a ton and having rules thrown at me that I never knew existed, but using them in real life is so much more helpful than endless workbooks and quizzes and tests. 


There are 300 more details that I am forgetting. But this is already long, and I am tired, so I'm sure you will forgive me. I will show you pictures from our weekend travels another time. Every day is an adventure here. I feel like I've been here for months. These first three weeks have been some of the longest of my life. But I'm so grateful for the chance I have to be here long enough to really soak things up and try to understand Spanish culture. 


I promise I'm not trying to be obnoxious by saying how much I love everything. I miss my people at home, that's for sure. And sometimes I would kill for a little dose of my normal, low-key Provo life. But I really am enjoying everything and doing my very best every day to find things to love while I'm here. I am also perpetually grateful for skype and email. Life is good. 


12.22.2010

happy christmas.

  


jokes!
When I was ordering our Christmas cards I sent that proof to my brother Price. He didn't find it funny at all. Everyone else did.

Though I may laugh and call him names, I still let him join in reindeer games. And actually I really appreciate his height because that means he is coming to BYU in the fall to be a volleyballer, so we can be best friends and I can mooch off his meal card. Maybe I will learn to cook something decent so I can feed him sometimes too. I really should learn to harness my domesticity into something more than a kitchen floor scrubbing every couple of weeks. 

Where was I?

Christmas cheer. I got way ahead of myself this year with our cute tree in the apt (read a.p.t.), endless holiday playlists, peppermint crunch junior mints, Christmas socks at least three times a week, Christmas classic movie nights...

plus:
-basketball games & date nights in snowy SLC
-First Presidency Christmas Devotional and pretty lights on Temple Square
-outdoor ice skating in Christmas sweaters
-Uganda reunion white elephant Christmas party
-surprise going away party for me and my two fellow Spaniards
-secret santa-ing with my favorite cute friends
-our yummy potluck goodbye lunch of roast & mashed potatoes (which were made by me and somehow managed to turn out delicious) & gravy & salad & homemade rolls & sooo many heavenly gingersnaps, followed by all ten of us snuggled up on the couch laughing
-ward service activity singing carols and hanging out with a bunch of sweethearts at a care center 
-a Christmas light tour of Provo/Orem with the most excellent tour guide in existence



Then, after surviving finals with the help of every sugary food product known to man, Matt and I hopped in a '93 Cherokee belonging to a friendly BYU student who was headed in the right direction, and at 3 am we began our two-lane highway trek to Colorado. I spent less than 24 hours there, but loved it nonetheless. The gentle snowfall on our afternoon walk around Matt's tiny little hometown was utterly magical. At one point we stopped and warmed our noses in the public library and read a lovely Christmas book, and then we went to his favorite thrift store and had incredible success. I bought a few dresses and the lady at the register begged me to try one on for her, so I obliged. It was amusing. Also I ate so much Mexican food it wasn't even funny, and we watched Fantastic Mr. Fox, which I enjoyed as well. The next morning we woke early to drive to Albuquerque. I've wanted to go to New Mexico ever since I did my state report on it in the fourth grade, so I was real excited. The football game was quite fun. Sweater weather. I much preferred it to how the Las Vegas Bowl always is. Then, before I knew what was happening, I got on a plane that magically delivered me directly to the Thomas & Mack. My first time seeing the Rebels live and in action this year and I loved it. It was a short but wonderful trip, and I'm glad our spontaneous planning skills made it happen.


Home is good. Christmas is good. Church is good. Pretty music is good. Our Savior is extra good. Family is good. Friends are good. Boyfriends are good. This rain-out of Las Vegas is good. Life is good. 

 
(this is the real picture. via harry potter land over thanksgiving. that's Hogwarts behind the trees.) 


Merry Christmas! I hope your life is full of so much Christmas cheer that you don't quite know what to do with it all.